Do we Believe?

The last couple of days this has been a question I had to reflect on. Do I really believe? As I walked yesterday, I talked to God about the daily struggles I have been facing. How I know I have my flaws and shortcomings, but I have been being obedient. I have been doing the things he has asked me, and I have been facing things I feel I should be passed by now. No sooner than I said that God showed me all the things he has bought me through. Was my current dilemma bigger than those and it wasn't.

He also showed me all the big things I am believing him for. How can I believe him for that and not to take care of the minimal things of my everyday problems. I had to laugh because that did seem a little ridiculous. I do believe he is going to make everything he showed me happen but once something happens out of my control, I begin to go back to survival mode on how I can get it figured out. I had to rest in the confidence God got me. It is hard because the problem is still there, but either you believe it or you don't.

I also get begin to get ahead of the day. instead of resting in I have everything I need today. Just being grateful for what God has done and is doing in the current moment. I had to take some deep breathes and just remind myself I am ok and safe in his arms. I began to sing " you make a way. When my back is against the wall, and it looks as if it was over. You make a way. You are God so you did it. You make a way". I know that was the Holy Spirit calming my inner storm. I just smiled and thanked God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. Let them know I love them and appreciate their faithfulness because I know I don't deserve it. I said out loud " I BELIEVE".