Preparation in isolation

Preparing me to have a heart for him, so that I can have a heart for his people. It won't happen overnight. I can tell you that firsthand because he has to still deal with us not wanting to change our ways at first. God has to begin working through us in subtle changes. I had to be in isolation to stop listening to foolishness and seeing the chaos around me as normal. He needed me to get in a place that I would seek him and hear what he is trying to instruct me to do.

Changing my coping mechanisms, my emotional intelligence, my spiritual intelligence, the way I took care of myself and my home. The way I treated the people that God was putting in my life for a lifetime. Teaching me to how to properly love myself so I can pour from my overflow. Looking to serve the people around me not for praise but because he made me to serve.

He was developing me in training me to who I needed to be in my personal life and home. So that when the blessings poured in that I would move that way on autopilot. God had to build up his trust in me with the little things so he could trust me with the bigger things. He had to show me I could handle the things that were hard for me with pure intentions. So, I could trust that I would move with pure intentions in everything.

I won't lie and say it was easy. It was hard to face myself and know that in every situation as an adult that I had to accept accountability for the things going wrong in my life. It was hard losing friends and having to sit with myself. It was hard to stop smoking and drinking and deal with my heartache and pain. To face that I had let myself get numb to everything. That I didn't know how to properly process what I was feeling. Not being able to attract the love I wanted because I didn't know how to love myself.

God cared about getting me into a place that I could clean it all up. Where I could put it all on the table and look at what I had took part in. Decide that that isn't want I wanted. Clean me up and start building me back up from shattered pieces. Filling me with the love he always intended me to know. So, I could know how I should be loved and begin to love others properly. Showing me being naive in letting people do me wrong was foolish. Teaching me boundaries and self-respect. Showing me what he always intended my life to look like. I thank God for my preparation in isolation.

It's my inheritance

I am at the threshold of receiving my inheritance. You are probably wondering how I know this. When I tell you every aspect of my life has been getting hit with warfare. Why else would the enemy be attacking me so hard? I mean in everything, but I have seen it for exactly what it is. I haven't let it get me out of character, worried, or even stop my praise and worship. I know who my God is, and he has never let me down. Not even when I was letting him down.

God made a promise that he would walk his people into a land he promised. For generations we have been forfeiting it by turning away from God. I know there is nothing I have done to deserve what is coming. I know better than to take credit for any of it. God wants to show who he is and bring people in the earth back to him. He just wants to us me for his glory and grow his kingdom in the earth. He wants the world to see his people flourishing because of our obedience and reverence for him.

So, I have been asking God to prepare us to be everything he intended for us to be for him to get the glory he deserves. Get me completely out the way God. Just use this body as a vessel. Let my heart, mind, and spirit be focused on you. Word my mouth, guide my steps, and make my hands of service. Let me be able to love my family and neighbor the way you intended for me to. For your glory. I will do anything. Just to see you and behold you as my King. I want to be where you are. Got to be where you are.

The day I was born

Today is the day I was born. I woke up this morning so full and grateful. There's a miracle in this room with my name on it. "There's a breakthrough in this room that's got my name on it. So, I'm going to put a praise on it" playing in my spirit. That's exactly what I did I began thanking God with several Hallelujahs for bringing me into another year. Not only getting me here but walking into it different. The peace I have on this birthday is one I have never known before.

I know I am walking into my new life. God's hand on my life will be evident in every aspect of my life. He even gave me an eclipse today to let me know he has heard me, and he hasn't forgotten what he showed me. I am going to pack me some snacks and take a drive to get a better view of it. Hopefully I will get a good shot of it. I mean it is for me. God has brought me into this year so full. What has transpired in the last week was all the birthday celebration I need. Jus like God he will always put a cherry on top.

I will drive back with the beautiful sunshine piercing through my windshield and cook a beautiful dinner. Jamaican which is my favorite. I'm cooking it all went and got some Amish chicken going to make some curry and jerk, rice and peas, and some cabbage and enjoy dinner with my husband. I'm going to even try a new hairstyle today. I am just so grateful to because I couldn't be in this place and be who I am today without him. I just can't wait to see what this day brings.